Wedding Bells Art no War

My mom's wedding was GREAT simple small and sweet but GREAT!! 

She was beautiful and I'm so happy for her! 

Finished filming today and almost finished editing I just have to finish editing violin to put them both up! :)(:

One more thing/preview to the video

This shirt should be a campain

<------- and a way of life!! : ) ( :

TGIF Mom is wedding

Thank God it's Friday! Great Week!! BIG NEWS! My Mom is getting married tomorrow!! : ) ( :

GO MOM!! GO MOM!! GO MOM!! GO MOM!! GO MOM!! GO MOM!! GO MOM!!

I really happy for her, some days I hate the guy, but in the end I have to support her in what she does because she is my mom and she is the only one I'll ever get!! :) 

Also started filming my violin and my random video today! They should be up soon!! :)(:

African Vipers

We are studying Africa in my World Geography class!! I am really enjoying it because I love Africa I think it is a beautiful place with beautiful people. I also think it is so sad that the people are starving and the land is hurting because I love it so much! The have a beautiful and vibrant culture from the song and dance to there religion and clothing it is all so beautiful!  So excited we are studying Africa!! :)(:

Also today had coffee with the lovely. extravagant, amazing, and talented, Derek!!! :) He got his long awaited Red Viper!!! (: so happy for him and so happy I got a ride!!! LOVE YOU SPENIX!! :) We were in a goffy mood and were joking about my walet and how I put a mustach on it and he said "We'll your really putting your money where your mouth is!" LOL :)(:

What if if never happens!??

I wrote this today:

If I could bring him back

if I could learn to laugh not have an attack

if I could wait years and years without a crack

if love could cut some slack

if pain could not be so black

If I could take you place or just have you with the pack

if those wolves where strong and ready enough for the snack

If  I could have taken away the black the deadly attack the cracks and make them cut you some slack

If I was strong enough to bring you back to the pack of wolves ready for the snack

just...

I what do I do if if never happens?

Do I run to the stars

Do I buy a few shiny cars

and drive through the scars

the song that made the love

god above

What do I do, What do I do

to get back to you

Time, A constant waste

When me

is with out you and your perfect

Love, A sour taste

when given by

her, him, them

if I could learn to bend the

rules, things that put me in a brace

when I want to call

but your not her at all

and I don't care about it I don't need it

hurt, makes my heart pace

a thump that won't go away

a implanted drug to the brain

a drain that works backwards to bring me back to 

if

I'm coming to you

just...What do i do with the waste the sour taste the too thick brace the hearts that pace

Do I run to the stars

Do I buy a few shiny cars

and drive through the scars

the song that made the love

god above

What do I do, What do I do

to get back to you

if I could grow strong

if I could grown a tall long

if I could sing every song

if I no it's wrong

if I want to hit the gong

if I need you now

oh how

did you not know

I needed you all along

I wanted you to love

You fit just like a glove

but when push comes to shove

you must stay with him above

I need you

I need to move on

I need to swim or fly or a perfect guy

I need the way carved

If only I could have it all or just a part

if I could have you back with me in my warm heart

just...

what do I do if, if never happens?

Do I run to the stars

Do I buy a few shiny cars

and drive through the scars

the song that made the love

god above

What do I do, What do I do

to get back to you

to get back to you

to get you back to me

what we could have been

back when

to get back to you

what would I do?

I UNDERSTAND HADEL!

I understand Handel 

My pre UIL judge unknowingly opened the door to Handel for me I understand now what he was trying to say on the Sonata. I was sad finding out that I had only made a 2 at Pre-UIL and not a 1 and felt I was being judged and was very angry. I practiced that day feeling those emotions and the music seemed to flow through me and I could feel what Handel was trying to say. Then latter when I remembered what the judge was telling another student "you should get to know your composer." and remembered how Heather used to have me read about my composers, and looked Handel up I read about his Sonatas and how he was being judged and was sad at the time. Some times you just have to get to the level and feel the emotions the composer felt to play it correctly I understand Handel!! :)(:

                              Also today I decided to take a dumb pic and show off my new hat!! :) 

                                      I AM HIGHLIGHTER HERE ME RAWR! RAWR!!!!

NEW PHONE IS NEW!!!!

I HAS A NEW PHONEY PHONE NOW!!!! YAYS!!

I got the Sprint HTC EVO 4G and it rocks my socks! 

We got a great deal on it and it kicks butt!

I haven't set it down yet!!! I download tons of useful, crazy, dumb. funny, entertaining, aps and LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Also got a really cute cover for it! and a really cute back-ground :)(: 

I no I said I was going to do more today but I did really I studied and gto my phone and play with my phone so there isn't really much to say. Real quick though I want to share this quote with you "In art as in love, instinct is enough."--Anatole France I really liked it because it says that art is love and to just fallow your heart with it because though important technique is not everything you have to add the art to the art in order to make it art! 

No School let's read and never leave bed!

Well REALLY REALLY not a thing to say today besides how I literally did nothing but read till I finished Thoughtless today of my I am a crazed book worm/book addict. Well so what if I'm a huga maga nerd that loves to read read and well read, I could so be gangster if I wanted!!!  YO "Let me break it down for you, Yo, No, Go, So, La ti do re me, get down on your knee, beg and beg wish you had a better peg peg, your beers in a keg wish you had a six pack don't look back yeah you know I'm black!!" :P oh my YES YES :)...no no just no :( haha 

PS. tomorrow I promise to do more than just read :pd: <---- I'm so cool :)(:

PRE-UIL and Cars

Oh my, my, my What a Day, what a day!! :) 

I had Pre-UIL today and it went good not great but good. I messed up a few times on memory and I could tell my Rhythm was off the whole time! O.O Still in teh end though it went good! =) The judge was really nice and gave me some really great advice! =D

After pre-UIL I went with my mom to go car shopping we went place to place looking for the right one and the right price till she finally found the one she wanted!! She got a 2004 Creamy White Esculade! :)(: I LOVE IT! 

Then we I got home I had a long conversation with my friend Justin Bows we talked about everything from School to Pat to just simply coffee it was great I miss talking to him like we used to! I love my Justin almost as much as I love his twin Richard they are some of my very close friends as well as my friend Sar and we have been through almost EVERYTHING together!! :)(:

Oh I miss them all so much but we are all still so close even if not phisicaly. Sar lives in Santa Monica(LA area), and The Twins live in NYC and I live in Dallas! We always joke and say we were all just so awesome! the had to spread us amongst the Country LOL :)(: pluss "I don't care bout the distance I care about you!"

 LOVE LOVE LOVE, LOVE  IS ALL YOU NEED!!! :)(:

So sorry I didn't blog last week not one post for a whole 10 days!! I am so ashamed so I will cover all the 10 days in their own little post for each day I forgot to post!!

Day 1:Friday January 14, 2011

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!

Haha today I had my English AKA my LAST exam FINALLY they are OVER!! Also today was PJ day for me and some friends due to the fact of it well being the last day of exams! I wore my comfy Garfield PJ pants and my Pittsburgh Steeler Snuggie! I was warm comfy and above all cozy! haha After the long yet easy Exam I yet again walked over to the lovely Summer Keller's house and hung out till it was time to get one the bus. Sounds easy but it was MOST DEFINITELY NOT! lol I had not remembered my phone so I could not call her to open the gate and had no way of getting in the building! :( luckily Summer was not the only Booker T. kid the lived there and some other girls let me in OH THANK THE KIND LORD! 

Afterwords I road home stretched out in my snuggie while talking across the way to Chase about his piece that is being recorded! I am so excited for him!! :)(: Chase is so talented! 

When I got home I practiced and practiced and practiced for  Pre-UIL Tomorrow!! so nervous I hope I do well! I worked so hard all night!! :) oh lord please!! please let me rock UIL's socks!! (:

Some days you just feel like smiling and some days you just feel like well smiling!

Today was a GREAT day I had my Web Mastering Exam and was long but relatively easy! :) I got to sit next to Rachel my mistake and got yelled at about 4 times by Ms. Scroggs LOL. First when I was talking before the test, twice when I got up to turn off my phone, thrice when I was talking after the test, quarto when I got up to get Rachel's back pack for her, but it didn't bring me down, I wasn't doing anything wrong she's just a mean teacher or was having a bad day god only knows but It could bring me down if I was an apple falling from a tree. Nothing could today I was just in one of those natural highs and was oblivious to sadness. I love day like these when the positive energy is so high it eclipses the negative. Also another positive thing I got to leave school earlier than the early day (2hrs) because of the lovely fact that I did not have a 7th period exam! I still had to come back to catch the bus but I got to hang with summer some more before doing so and it was fun! :)(: 

Somedays life is great and some days life is horrid. I have experienced both these past few days with my mom sick and other family things, the shorter school days, exams, hanging out with Summer, Jashuha, and everyone at BTW, it's hectic but great "Everyday may not be good, but there is good in everyday!"

That Won't Be On The Test... (1/12/10)

I took my Biology and Geometry Exams today :P

Ah Exams don't you just love them!??

They were beyond odd. I felt that I was very prepared for my Biology since I had studied do much this year, over break and with the packet, but the test was unbelievably HARD! It was like everything we spent weeks going over was not on the test and everything that was assumed not to be on the test was in fact on the test! It was horrible. I still think I did okay, I just probably won't get the grade I wanted. My Geometry exam on the other hand was so easy, there were only  very few of questions I didn't know. I was surprised by this because I was expecting it to be very hard because I was no where near as prepared for it as my other test. I guess sometimes you know what you didn't think you did and you don't know what you thought you knew everything about. Ha ha well life goes on.

After school I had my Violin lesson with my new and improved sound post standing violin!! :) The lesson went great I think Pre-UIL should go good. I am going to practice like crazy Friday can't wait to get finished with this Solo!! :)

:)(: and to continue the art...

To add to the very VERY artsy night all I had to do today at school was practice and play with our accompanist! THE BEST! not that I no not enjoy my other classes because I do, but after all I am here for my violin! :) Sadly though my sound post fell :( I have to get it fixed now and Pre UIL is Saturday and I have a violin lesson Tomorrow. Uhhgg why does it always happen to me! haha It'll be okay it's what I get for having to much fun last night! =/ I found a quote from my friend Jennifer Rockwell's Facebook Page "Why is it that we fall right before the test to stand?" So wonderful this really raped up exactly how I feel sometimes like today! (: BTW forgot to mention that it snowed here!!!!!! :)(: OMG OMG OMG!!!!! :)(: Ahh the kid in me...

Anyways I'm going to study for my Biology and Geometry exams I have mananna! :) 

A Day in the Life of an Artist!

One Day Ago: First day back at the old school since all the drama at home! I took my World Geography exam and it was very easy! Long but easy! :) then after that I had all my regular b-day classes and they all went fantastic. :) The best part of the day was when I got to spend the night with my wonderful friend Summer she is the sweetest girl when she heard that I did not have a 1st period exam but I had a 2nd period exam she immediately said I could stay her home which is across the street from school. We had so much fun goofing of and just having fun! It was great to spend the night among the beautiful Dallas Arts District! We did everything we danced to music, raped(Summer sooo beat me but there WILL be a round two!), Improved a musical scene and an acting scene, did a ballet tape, and of course we did some studying, the fell asleep to The Arts District's lights What an artsy night:)(:  LOVE YOU SUMMER!!

Here you are!

Sorry I haven't posted in three days home life has been very dramatic but I will be making it up to you with three post! 

Three Days Ago: My mom was very sick and had to go to the hospital. I was with her and did not get to finish any of the work I had to do over the weekend. I was so upset I did not want to go to school for two reasons I didn't want to leave my mom, and I was not prepared for anything!! :( I was a big mess. I just had to concentrate on the good or else I would have gone crazy. This day reminded me of many sad things but I also of a quote of mine that kept me going: "I do not live my life for the many times I cry myself to sleep, but for the few times I laugh till I cry!"                

Yesterday is a angry memory!

Sorry I didn't make a post yesterday. I had a bad day. School was great but when I got home I found out my mom my have cancer, again. I just was very emotional. I hated yesterday my mom's boyfriends was SUCH A JERK the past few days on Thursday we didn't eat dinner till 11:00 because of him, then Friday he didn't come home till wait I mean he didn't make us go pick him up till 1:00 at night, and my mom REALLY needed pain pills and stuff from the store, but he would rather drink the night away. Then this morning he yelled and left causing my mom to go to the store. But she doesn't care she forgives him in one second. She always puts him first before me, my brother and even herself. When we were shopping she almost literally ran home because he said he was there then when she got home like 5 minutes later he left and probably won't be home till like 1, 2, or even 3. 

I hate that jerk! So freakin much 

Also today she bought the suit for him to get married in YAY, NOT. 

3 more years and I'm out of this drunk, dead, dark, hole!!!

Yellow

Hey Hi Hello 

I hope everyone had a great day today because I know I did! :)(:

I always enjoy b-days because they are relaxing compared to A-days and hold most of my favorite classes!Tomorrow I have some final exams I hope I do GREAT! haha I'm pretty sure I will. but who is to say? Today was on of those easy breezy lalala days and I quite enjoyed it!! I had breakfast for dinner at IHOP tonight it was DELICIOUS! Ymmmm. 

Also Today I found this quote! "How wonderful yellow is. It stands for the sun." -Vincent Van Gogh I found it on this AWESOME site all about yellow!! http://www.squidoo.com/allaboutyellow haha It says: Yellow shines with optimism, enlightenment, and happiness. Shades of golden yellow carry the promise of a positive future. Yellow will advance from surrounding colors and instill optimism and energy as well as spark creative thoughts. 

This just proves Why Yellow yes Yellow is the best!! :)(: 

Yellow makes you happy gives you a little sunshine and sparks your creativity why would or maybe I should ask how could anyone not LOVE this color??!!! :)(:  

Anzywaz I guess I should get some sleep for ACPs!! 

Finaly Blogger is working!! :)

Sorry I didn't Blog yesterday Blogger was not allowing me to make a new post! :(

But this is Yesterday's post.

Man I was in a mood!! HAHA I was mad then sad the glad then excited and adventurous then just simply crazy all in the same day!! :) It was a pretty good day thought besides when Mr. Large ripped me apart. He pointed out EVERY little thing I did wrong and then had a 10 min. lecture about how I messed up. It made me so angry and sad I felt like a violin failure when I left class.Besides that my day was great! :) I got to have a great conversation with my friend Justin!! It was great! I miss Him and Richard so much, it's great to talk to them! Also today I got to see all my A-day friends that I didn't see yesterday! :) BTW I'm so ready for the Geometry exam!

All that we are is the result of what we have thought. If a man speaks or acts with an evil thought, pain follows him. If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought, happiness follows him, like a shadow that never leaves him. -Buddah

To enjoy good health, to bring true happiness to one's family, to bring peace to all, one must first discipline and control one's own mind. If a man can control his mind he can find the way to Enlightenment, and all wisdom and virtue will naturally come to him. -Buddah

Both of these Buddah  Quotes care amazing I'm not Buddist but i believe Buddah was very wise and knew the route to true happiness in life. I would love to have a conversation with a Buddist I am very curious about their religion/beliefs! :)

Anyways.....

I am so READY for the weekend I'm Tired night night!!

 

:)YELLOW FROGS(:

FIRST DAY BACK!!

WOW! Today was my first day back to BTWHSPVA after break! YAY!! :)

It was great to see all my friends again I really missed them and seeing them really made me feel loved. I hope they know how much they matter to me!

Today in New Works we did this Yin and Yang thing where we wrote down all our weaknesses/negative things/things we wanted to rid of on dark paper(Yang) and then we wrote down all our positive things/strengths on white papper(Yin) and put them in two seperate boxes. We are going to do something with them later and I am REALLY excited!! :)(: 

I HAVE A HONKING HEADACHE RIGHT NOW SO I'LL TALK  TO YOU GUYS MORE LATER WHEN I FEEL BETTER! :( sorry post was short! much love ttyl :)(:

Time flys when your having fun :)(:

GEEZEE! This Christmas and New year + the break from School were so darn AMAZING! They literally blew me AWAY (No seriously when I was in Amarillo I was blown well let's just say "away")! :) Anyways I hope everyone got some rest and relaxation! :)

I'm super SICKED to go back to school I have missed it so much it was like being away from your baby blanket! LOL jk. But I really am glad to go back!! :)(:

Beautiful Quote today: I actually wrote this one!!! "If your sitting on the edge you still have the choice to fall or fly!"~Cheyenne R. Farley

Goes along same lines as if life hand you lemons but more like if your on the edge and about to burst make the best of it and FLY! :)(:

My life has sucked so much in the past years but it has also been so great. I am a very lucky person because I choose to take what I have and Fly!! :)(:

Yellowrays Violin video will be up Saturday and Random video will be up sometime this week

Also just because I am not mentioning the word or things I learned does not mean the did not happen the just take to much room!! :)(:

Oh Pattykinz I miss you!

I was in a poetic mood today I found this quote: "Poetry is the art of uniting pleasure with truth."- Samuel Johnson and wrote this. 

THE HARDEST THING I DID

Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.

Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
For you were no where in sight.

You were my first real love
And this I will never forget
How you left without a warning
No good-byes, my only regret.

Wherever I may be now
Always searching for another so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my love to someone like you.

If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.

No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.

I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.

This is given to you in honor
Of all that we did share
I just wanted you to know, dear,
How much I really did care.

This was for and about Pat who died Nov. 8 

Anyways as you can tell he was on the brain today I miss him so much, but I'm okay. 

I finished my room yesterday it looks GREAT! 

Hung out with my mom and Kristina it was fun! :)

1/1/11 WOW! Biology in My Dirty Room

Today I got up really late because I went to bed late! haha but it was still a good day. I have been working on to MAJOR task today cleaning my room and doing my Biology work. I am not done with either but I really want to get it all done and I know I can!!! Last night was a great night I literally danced the night away. I haven't played my violin in two days!! OMG I WILL play it manana. :)(: I have set up my new Youtube account it is TheYellowrays only have one video up but more coming soon. I am not able do give blood :( but I have decided to find a quote everyday instead! :) I lost the battery to my camera, but I'm sure I'll find the little punk :P So far this year is great!!!! :)(: 

Quote:"Wherever you go, go with all your heart."~Confucius I found this quote on some dumb site that wanted all this info and crap but it stuck out. I really like it. It means no matter what you decide, do, love, or whatever in life know that you are right and to do it 200% :)(:

Word of the Day:(http://www.dictionary.com)ENGLISH -plenipotentiary

\ plen-uh-puh-TEN-shee-air-ee; -shuh-ree \  , adjective;

1.Containing or conferring full power; invested with full power; as, "plenipotentiary license; plenipotentiary ministers."

noun: 1.A person invested with full power to transact any business; especially, an ambassador or diplomatic agent with full power to negotiate a treaty or to transact other business.

 

SPANISH-El Rumbodirection, route, course

Thing I learned: I learned that it is a New Years resolution in many Latin cultures to eat 12 grapes and make a wish for each month of the year as you eat the grapes!! :)(:

 

Well back to Biology! :)(: